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I am writing a book on the contributions of Louis
Ralph Pondy to Management Thought. His most famous model
was done in his dissertation (1966). I will relate it to
his 1986 Reflections on Organizational Conflict. Here is my
rendition of the original model.
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Pondy's Model C (Conflict) is about episodic conflicts that
are part of how organizations adapte to their
environment. It is an example of what C. S. Peirce calls
infinitesimal durations that recur in a cyclical pattern
What Pondy (1986)
concludes is organiztions are more about recurring conflict
than about anthing like cooperation or harmony.
I
will make a bold claim. Organizations can be manifesting
chronic stress that is experienced by people as Felt and
Perceived Conflict. The suppression mechanisms do not
work very well, nor do the resolution mechanisms.
Latent and Manifest conflict is something I have
experienced in the U.S. Army, in Vietnam, and in 40
years of academic life at three universities. Each
one was a caldron of conflict, and people experience the
necessary outcomes, including all kinds of disease,
including prostate and kidney cancer. In the
caldron of chronic conflict of an organization, people
either go with the flow and do not eat the stress, or we
stuff it down into our body organs, bones, and
flesh. The more we shove down in the the gut
(lower Dantian, a few fingers below navel), the more we
have problems with Mind Body Spirit, including
cancer. It is not just the organization setting us
in the caldron, it is our own individual way of Wu Wei
skills (going with the flow instead of eating the flow,
or pushing the river upstream). I would like to
amend my mentor's conflict model. I propose we
stop organizations from suppressing conflict, and
promote more conflict management for well-being, not
just as the elusive adaptive apparatus by which conflict
is how an organization continues to adapt to its it's
environmental shifts.
Pondy (1986) in his last address to Academy of
Management, confessed his conflict model was in error.
This is what my new book is about. Pondy proposed
organizations bring in the conflict of its environment,
and stage it theatrically, and with reflexivity, so that
instead of suppressing conflict the organization is
resolving the forces and energies of conflict. I
own my own cancer, name it Little Buddha in an embodied
restorying process (ERP) then apply all I have learned
about quantum storytelling to manage my stress with Wu
Wei and Shamanic Yoga.
This is also an amendment to the new movie,
HEAL, which leaves out how to use Mind Body Spirit of
ancient India and China practices of Self-Healing. It's
not just positive thinking cures cancer or that tricking
the mind into placebo mode. Rather science studies of
yoga find that 90% of people with cancer are helped by
the practices (McCall M.D., 2007) and 97% of people with
anxiety are helped. It is not just the Shamanic
Yoga or other Yoga practice, it is the spiritual work
that makes all the difference. It is how Brain-talker
(who manages the automatic systesm of the body but
speaks and processes at 90 miles an hour) is out of
phase with what I call 'Mind-Player' the thinking and
sensemaking (of 5 senses), which only processes at 5
MPH). The Body-Talker (to all the vital systems of
the Body) has to hear the Mind-Player messages, and that
is not just positive thinking, it is positive action the
Body can notice.
Next, my autoethnography of stress and cancer
diagnosis and prognosis in the Medical Model.
Mid January 2022, I noticed blood in my urine. My
friends told me, 'drive now to the emergency room.'
Instead I called my M.D., who told me, emergency rooms cannot
treat this. Jan 12 2022
did a Zoom visit with an Medical Doctor, and schedule urine
and blood tests at a lab. By this time the blood in urine had
ceased. Time for testing. I scheduled a PSA (prostate
specific antegens) blood test, and its was off the scale, 26.8.
Simvastatin 20 mg 1/day evenings, begun Jan 13, 2022 (per M.D.'s order). It is used to treat high choleserol levels (measured 250, but had been 450 in 1996. Mine is still quite high, but without the vegan diet commenced in 1995, I would not be here to tell you this.
I saw several doctors and the MD scheduled me to
see an oncology doctor. January 26, 2022 I reported to a
hospitial wearing COVID mask, after doing an enema, and had a CT
scan of the pelvic area, after an IV of idodine, so the photo
images would have good contrast. Two days later (Jan 28) the
full body Gamma Scan, with enough radiated soemthing in the IV
to cause border patrol radiation quipment to sound alarms (I was
offered a special pass to get through such check points). On
second visit the oncologyist did a Prostate biopsy, in end of
January
He called me on a Friday to tell me biopsy
samples tested positive for prostate cancer. The biopsy resulted
in about three weeks of blood in the urine. I went in the
following Wednesday (Feb 2, 2022) for an appointment, to get the
diagnosis and my prognosis. A rather alarming and stress
occurance each time I peed.
At the Feb 2nd visit, I learned 13 of 17 biopsies
revealed cancer. A Cat Scan (taking idodine for camera contrast)
and a Gamma Scan of whole body (taking radiated something that
sets off Border Patrol alarm apparatus). I went in for the next
appointment. Overall the diagnosis was stage 2B on its way to
stage 3.
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Doctor's notations on my test results, an Aggressive Malignant
cancer which has moved outside the organ to outer tissue, Stage
2B headed to Stage 3.
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The
Prostate
biopsy showed:
Good
news, the Gamma Scan revealed no bone cancer, but Bad News:
Revealed a smaller Right Liver Cancer measuring 1.4 by 1.5
by 1.3 cm.
The prognosis was do nothing and I have 5 to 10
years to live, and 10 to 15, or a bit more, with surgery. We
looked at the options of surgical removal of the entire prostate
or undergo radiation treatments. Both procedures have about the
same life expectancy outcome.
A week later, I got an appointment with a
radiation doctor, and I learned surgery or radiation, either one
involves chemical castration. Advice was to start the 30 days of
pills to enact chemical castration. This was supplemnted with
shots every sig months at my oncology doctor's office, to
further the chemical castration, and keep testocercine at bay.
This was predicted to allow oversized prostate (100cc) to shrink
possibly by 30%, which would mean I was eligible for radiation
therapy rather than surgical removal, which has some quite
horrid side effects.
Feb 8, 2022 a now, fourth opinion,
by MD Anderson was scheduled. I spoke to an intake facilitator
to verify my DOB, drivers' license, and insurance info.
We went over the Gamma and CT scan, and the biopsy, and the
Gleason Score (4+5=9 out possible 10). Since the cancer had
moved outside the Prostate and one was atop rught Kidney, the
Proton Radiation was the prediction.
Bicalutamide 50 mg 1/day AM, 30
tablets begun Tues Feb 15, 2022, ending Wed Mar 13
(per Dr. of Radiology order, RGU/El Paso office)
Hormone shot (Lupron?), Dr. of
Oncology office, Tues Feb 17, 2022
Good News. Had colosopy test, and
it came back negative. Worst part is drinking a galon of
Polyethylene Glycol. The procedure itself: I was asleep
with an IV drip to put me under, and did not feel a thing.
Mar 1, 2022 (today) I wait for MD
Anderson video visit before flying to Houston.
On Mar 2, I fly with my wife to Houston to
see a surgeon, and get a second blood test done at MD Anderson.
We may go to the Mayo Clinic after this. Why? Mayo seems
more about Mind Body Spirit holistics than MD Anderson. I am
trying to keep and open mind.
I decided to implement more of my own teachings
about Quantum Storytelling, and do what I could to lower my
stress level.
The past 40 plus years I have been a storytelling
researcher. I invented something called 'Quantum Storytelling'
(QS) because I wanted to include something spiritual in quantum
physics. I decided to put some preventive practices in places.
My general Medical Doctor believes in Mind Body Spirit, and so
do I. The other doctors, not so much, if at all, are only about
the physiology of the body.
I was peeing every 20 minutes, and only aboly to
sleep an hour at a time at night. I did Shamanic Drumming with
my psychoanalyst, who is also a Curandero Shamanic Practitioner.
I also am a Shamanic Practitioner. As he did the Jaguar
Song, and I beat on my own drum, a new
Helping Spirit came to me during the meditation. I call it
Little Buddha (but more accurately in Jainism its Little
Mahavira). By naming the cancers as Little Buddha and
Little Mahavira, I was doiing something called the Embodied
Restoryting Practice (ERP).
Cancer is 90 to 95% environmental, and only 5 to
10% genetic defects passed generation to generation (Anand et
al., 2008). Fleshner and Ziotta (2009) conclude prostate is
mostly a preventable disease.
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Source: Anand et al., 2008
When we look at the Gene Cancers, we
find Prostate cancer there. When we look at Environment
Cancers, its there too. I had been obese, over 220 pounds, and
was not 177. Over past months with exercise, and increasing my
running, I am about 165. My diet has been vegan for years, and
vegetarian for decades since meeting Grace Ann. We do raw food a
month or so annuall, we switched to total raw food diet, and
added all the recommended supplemnets. I quit alcohol some
24 years go, Cold Turkey. So that part is done. Toboacco, I
smoke a pack to packa nd a half a day until Vietnam, then
switched to a pipe, and a few years later about 1980 dropped all
toboacco. Anand et al (2008) do not include Agent Orange,
which I will get to shortly.
Source: Anand et al., 2008
When we look at the variety of
environmental cancer sources, we find in the 35% Diet cancers,
that diet is 75% of Prostate cancer. Even though Prostate
cancer is mostly environmental, I notice every doctor obsesses
on my father and mother having had it or not. Nothing is
said about diet.
Source: Anand et al., 2008
Prostate cancer can be either/or
genetic (2.2% of all cancers) or environmental, such as
35% of the environmental variety. Each cancer, has a prime
contributor called diet, as much as 75% in cases of Prostate
cancer are resultant of our own Diet choices.
Diet and Prostate Cancer are so correlated that some countries
such as China and India, have almost none (but have other
kinds), and others, such as U.S. are riven with it (and most
kinds).
"Death rates from prostate cancer vary across the globe, with Westernized nations having the highest risk of incidence and death and Asian nations having the lowest. The over- all chance of death from prostate cancer, even among Westernized nations that have not historically treated the disease for cure, is 3.5% to 4%" (Fleshner & Ziotta, 2007).Until I met Grace Ann Rosile in 1994, my diet was exactly what feeds Prostate cancer growth Pizza, burgers, and chocolate.
Fleshner, N., & Zlotta, A. R. (2007). Prostate cancer
prevention: past, present, and future. Cancer, 110(9),
1889-1899. https://acsjournals.onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/pdfdirect/10.1002/cncr.23009